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There is always a way
to get me back to that state
where i am very scared
where i am very very sad
i dont like myself treating myself this way
i am in control
and the way i am controling myself is doing somehting i dont desire
it hurts a lot
i care a lot
a little too much of everything hurts
and a little too much is what i am having now
just a little bit too much
it's just
just...