08.10.05

"wait, so your story was about me?!"
oh my god... this is hopelessly romantic
and deep down
i am just another girl who believes in the happily-ever-after...
i really think that fairy tales do come true
well
at least in a fraction of a second...

p.s. fuck, i am still so into you
wonder when can i get over that...
arhhhhhhhhhhh

i miss Faye

Positively negative

sometimes i wonder why i have so much faith in many things
in life
in humanity
in love
etc.

could always find the beauty within the ugliness
although i know long ago that everyhting is ugly...

life is hell
human beings are stupid
love is a bitch
etc.

wishes

i wish
i could erase you from my life
like my first abortion
our son before the seperation

i wish
i were a man
a gay man to be exact
so that it would sound better to say
"my boyfriend left for another guy..."
not that i duno you are bi-

but
i should be careful for what i wish for...
for no one to blame
i myself is the chaos

um hm

i am the best compainion
who never acompany anymore
not to the theater
nor to the shows

but it is okay
i sense this something
i know
a beautiful and magical situation
with me excluded

recent addiction

the kills
new


and old

師姐舊歌

明明在轉彎　你一叫　就馬上回頭
為何還在等　也沒人　求我別要走
樓梯轉角後　永遠是我的
小吵架以後　喘息棲身處
還　時時為你放慢走
預期十秒後會給拯救

頹然在梯間落淚
你在從前熱戀　定必跑過來追
體貼地扶我歸去
也及時認錯　發誓最深愛是誰
明明在等你來追
但回望不見搜索隊
心　經已逐級沉下去
做了幾年情侶　還是有一天淡下去

為人沒信心
我知我　任性又麻煩
時時排練的
假分手　難怪未過關
樓梯轉角後　我也在強撐
擔心你有日　終於睜開眼
才　明瞭未算太值得
盡情就我　但我竟這樣煩

頹然在梯間落淚
你在從前熱戀　定必跑過來追
體貼地扶我歸去
也及時認錯　發誓最深愛是誰
明明在等你來追
但回望不見搜索隊
心　經已逐級沉下去
做了幾年情侶　還是有一天淡下去

頹然在梯間落淚
要是談情越久　越顯得淡如水
相愛但嫌棄相聚
下半生可以放心　倚靠著誰
情人若不會來追
是時候該決定也許
走　心已受傷回不去
共你一場情侶　還是再忍忍再歸隊

sublime

Linda mentioned this in Jone's critic...
interesting...
Wiki: sublime

just been thinking silly

why does the truth matter?
if he told you that everything he said was a lie,
would you love him any less?
i love the true side of you
then i could also love your lies
just like a big fish moment
you tried to embellish the ugliness with imagination
whats so wrong about that?
you never meant to hurt her
nothing could be entirely real anyway
i stick to your versions of things
you believe my truth/lie/what-so-ever
we are in love/lust/void
or maybe
all just end up
a dream

Simply Wonderful

Charlotte Gainsbourg, in Balenciaga, with Yvan Attal.

so much love...

Quoi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gz7_QVejQM

He wrote this for her after they seperated
If he really did cried
No wonder it touches everyone
Totally heart-breaking

Quoi
De notre amour feu ne resterait que des cendres
Moi
J'aimerais que la terre s'arrête pour descendre
Toi
Tu me dis que tu vaux pas la corde pour te pendre
C'est à laisser ou à prendre

Joie
Et douleur c'est ce que l'amour engendre
Sois au moins conscient que mon coeur peut se fendre
Soit
Dit en passant j'ai beaucoup à apprendre
Si j'ai bien su te comprendre

Amour cruel
Comme en duel
Dos à dos et sans merci
Tu as le choix des armes
Ou celui des larmes
Penses-y penses-y
Et conçois que c'est à la mort à la vie

Quoi
De notre amour feu ne resterait que des cendres
Moi
J'aimerais que la terre s'arrête pour dscendre
Toi
Tu préfères mourir que de te rendre
Va donc savoir va comprendre

Freja

metempsychosis

i have no idea who you were
there are always things i couldn't understand
most of the time
as individuals
we want to be left alone
only you though
could make me feel safe and comfortable to be with
without words
the inarticulate moment
we don't even need words
you never speak much
but i know
i just do
this is when she said
"please dont leave me"
yet she left him in the first place
who knows what happened times before that
time
how much do we know about that

Dylan

Just Like A Woman



I want you

you rock my bed!

"...你引致我床搖搖..."
only wyman can turn a lullaby into something so sexy

:)))))))))))))))

It's the best

Again

There is always a way
to get me back to that state
where i am very scared
where i am very very sad
i dont like myself treating myself this way
i am in control
and the way i am controling myself is doing somehting i dont desire
it hurts a lot
i care a lot
a little too much of everything hurts
and a little too much is what i am having now
just a little bit too much
it's just
just...