awful

it feels awful when
nothing happens
no matter how hard you tried

they only focus on themselves
they never pick it up
they leave you behind
they are busy
they look at you with strange eyes

and you are awake

"oh wow... but fuck you!"

thanks for having lunch with me
thanks for asking me important questions
thanks for cheering me up
thanks for giving me candies
thanks for the tangerines
thanks for sending me online shopping links
thanks for talking to me about italy
thanks for trying to date me
thanks for sms-ing me every two minutes with your iphone
thanks for sending me letters
thanks for buying me food... a lot of food

you you you you you
the best friends ever that keep me going
just a voice
just a face
and i am all alive again

thanks for allowing me
not to speak
or lie